Things are going pretty good for us. I really cant complain. God has blessed my little family beyond my dreams...still I feel a hole. She was only here for 6 weeks...just a glimmer in my eye, but I still hold an empty space in my heart. I watch Daniel as he grows and I catch myself wondering what Vanessa would have been doing at that stage, what would she look like, what silly things would she be doing while she nurses, would her smile be sweet like his?
I dont think of her as often as I used to...which is sad to me, but the more I think of her the more I hurt so I suppose it's more bittersweet than anything. I guess the reason I dont think of her is that I know where she is. I KNOW that one day I will bust down the gates of Heaven to get to her. I will catch her in my arms and hold her close, smell her sweet smell and kiss her precious cheeks as I spin her around. Until then I will carry her memory and make sure that she is never forgotten.
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I think it's just a natural thing that as time passes you think of them less and less. I remember in the beginning Carleigh consumed my thoughts. And while I still think of her every day now, it isn't all-consuming like it used to be.
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